Jaded. / ►Thursday, July 29, 2010 @ 9:03 PM
Hmm. Nothing much happened today, I guess. Pretty mundane; the emotions I've been feeling for the past few days are nothing new either, so ya. 'Nothing new' seems to be pretty much in my vocabulary nowadays. LOL.
/ ►Tuesday, July 27, 2010 @ 9:28 PM
Why??
Ah, to hell with it.
Bye.
The Greatness of our God. / ►Wednesday, July 28, 2010 @ 9:19 PM
Hello (:The week has been pretty boring and uneventful.. Which, I suppose, would mean that things are getting better? Or maybe not! Who knows. I think things have been pretty quiet on the surface, but things are boiling inside me. Just yesterday I had a row with my mum about whether/when I could use the computer, which is so pathetic. Well, let's try to be more optimistic and try to be in their shoes huh. Suppose it's the consequences of my actions? The 'fruit' of my 'labour', to be sarcastic.
We got our Prelim schedule yesterday. Oh, horror! And hey, guess what! I screwed up my latest E Math Mock Exam! Whoo! How encouraging. Ugh. Maybe I'm burning out. But then again, I have no right to be burnt out 'cuz I haven't even been studying properly! Oh, whoop de doo. Ugh.
What's happened? I've become so bitter. Stuff happened over lunch today, but oh well. It's all okay now so no point moping around sulking about it. I bit my lip over lunch today. Maybe it'll become an ulcer. Who knows? Grr. HAHA.
Sigh.. I should really try to stop being so gloomy and annoyingly fluctuating. It even annoys me; imagine how it would irritate others HAH.
But at least I have someone to turn to, someone who's always there for me no matter what. My G-O-D, is B-I-G! Hahahahaha :] Look at the title of my blog post (: Meaningful? Yes, definitely. Let me end with this chorus. (:
You are my freedom,
Jesus you're the reason,
I'm kneeling again at your throne.
Where would I be, without you,
here in my life, here in my life.
Yup. I believe this chorus speaks for itself :]
Bye.
Sigh. I've been really tired lately.. I slept so much yesterday and I'm still so tired! Ugh what's with me. Was falling asleep during tuition just now ._. How annoying and frustrating.
Anyway. Mr Foo was telling us about how lucky and fortunate his 2 younger brothers are.. -sighs wistfully- I wish I could live like that too! ): Oh well. Guess I ain't cut out for such things; I'm not bold enough. I wish I could be like his 3rd brother who can afford to sit back and shake his legs and be an armchair director.. Oh well (: Lucky people, I guess. While people like me have to slog our asses off just to get somewhere.
Alright stop being so pessimistic. CSI, HERE I COME! :D
/ ►Thursday, July 22, 2010 @ 9:56 PM
STUPID STUPID STUPID. I LOST ALL MY TEMPLATE INFO WHEN I CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN UGH. Anyway. Talk about trust. So just because there's a rationale behind your 'reasoning' you get to change whatever you say as and when you want to and I can't? What if I tell you I can see the rationale behind my actions too? Would you believe/accept it? NO!
Oh whatever. I'm tired. Bye.
/ ►Tuesday, July 20, 2010 @ 10:10 PM
I realize something. I've been crying a lot lately.. LOL. Anywayz. I hate being so tired, it's really annoying. Like, SERIOUSLY. ANNOYING. TO. THE. MAX.
Lots of things happening now, one of which is particularly delightful (:
Bye. (:
/ ►Monday, July 19, 2010 @ 11:07 PM
Hmm. Last night was.. Different (: I think I've become vulnerable and unstable hah. Been sleeping at my usual time but feeling a lot more tired than I normally would've felt.. Weird?
Nigel asked me to listen to 'I Never Told You'. It's so nice; it has such meaningful lyrics.. The music video's incredibly touching too. Sigh.. Oh dear. I feel perilously close to tears now :]
Bye.
/ ►Sunday, July 18, 2010 @ 9:39 PM
Hmm. I cheered up a little last night. Went for dinner at the SAF Yacht Club; it was nice and breezy and we were sitting right above the water haha :] Pleasant evening, I would say. Oh well. Pessimism has overcome me once again. Goodbye, world.
/ ►Saturday, July 17, 2010 @ 11:10 PM
The day didn't start off very well for me.. ): I suppose it was a combination of fatigue and me feeling cranky..? Yeah. Having lessons didn't help either. Plus I was late for Chemistry 'cuz of a stupid flood near Eunos which caused me to take like, 15 minutes or something to get past 3 traffic lights when it should only have taken 5 to 7 minutes -.- Ugh.Anywayz. I have to go so I'll end here. Bye (: Feeling a little down-ish again now, for some reason. Sigh. I hate it when my mood fluctuates. Makes me seem like some mood swinging lunatic..
/ ►Friday, July 16, 2010 @ 11:25 PM
Tired, tired, tired ):Anyhoo. Today was an okay day, not fantastic but not disastrous either :] Except that my Chinese teacher went wacky today heh. Lunched at the hawker centre near Parkway with my mum and bought Pass with Distinction for both A and E Math. Sigh.. No life ttm -.-
LESSONS TOMORROW OMG NOOOOO ): HELP.
/ ►Thursday, July 15, 2010 @ 10:24 PM
I don't think I've ever felt as tired as I've felt in a day for so long.. Sigh. I am seriously sleep deprived :/ Anyway I didn't blog about yesterday's Speech Day performance (: It went much better than expected, considering the fact that we didn't even manage to run through the songs even once :/ It was so scary!!!
Alright short post today :D
Bye!
/ ►Wednesday, July 14, 2010 @ 11:11 PM
Anger. So you think you're doing this 'for my happiness'? Oh, what poppycock. You think I believe that? Do you seriously think that by doing this to me, you're making me happy?? Hell, no. You're delusional if you think that way. Depriving me of my basic rights? Yes, I know that sounds cliche but that is exactly what you are doing. Oppressing me? Yes, definitely! Stopping me from being who I am? Oh, confirm, plus chop plus counter sign plus guarantee! I knew it, I just knew, that something was bound to go wrong. That feeling I had, before I left school. That feeling of lethargy and the knowledge that something's going to go wrong, but you don't know what it is and you can't stop it either. Basically, I DIDN'T FEEL LIKE GOING HOME. Don't you think that's um, pretty sad? Your own daughter doesn't feel like going home? Know why? THE HOUSE IS LIKE A PRISON. PERIOD.
Don't blame me if I say y'all are idiots or anything. You say I brought all this shit upon myself right? Well, SAME GOES TO YOU, MY FRIENDS. Tell me to think about what y'all said right? Do some self-reflection, too. Think, and try to discern if this is the right way to be doing things that are supposedly for my own good, 'cuz right now, it's highly detrimental to me. And like it or not, it's just making things worse. Too bad. GET A LIFE.
Never mind. Whatever. Back to the fray tomorrow.
/ ►Monday, July 12, 2010 @ 11:07 PM
Helloz (: Reached school at about 6 45 today since I had to be at the assembly plaza by 6 50 for prize presentation.. Hehe turns out I forgot to bring my prize back, hope it's still under my table! Anyway. I HATE FB'S PHOTOS UPLOADER!!! ): ): It's so annoying. And lately I can't even go to the 'select pictures' mode, it's like, simple uploader -.- HELP. A few days ago I wanted to upload and I selected only about 5 pictures and hey, guess what? THE STUPID BAR DIDN'T EVEN MOVE. I gave up (: So I haven't had the chance to upload even a single photo from last week's outing with Crossover to the Barrage. Lame, or lame?
Hmm, let's see. Today was pretty mundane, I guess? Didn't fall asleep at all until I had Lit.. I wanna continue watching 'Atonement'!!!! Sigh. I wanna see what the annoying, bratty sister does to get the poor um, worker (?) into trouble. STUPID GIRL.
I bought new Converse school shoes heh (: Irrelevant, but I felt like mentioning it (:
Bye!
/ ►Sunday, July 11, 2010 @ 10:09 PM
And I thought today would all be smooth sailing. Ugh, FAT HOPE. I still felt horribly tired today. Napped just now so I don't feel so tired but how 'bout I feel horrible inside now. Was cranky after I woke up but I cheered up a little over dinner.. But now. Well. What can I say. My whole afternoon was screwed up. Because of 1 pathetic incident. I suppose my scathing sarcasm did nothing to soften their resolve, because underneath all that sarcasm was a whole lot of hurt. I seriously do not know what I was feeling just now. The cheek of you, to tell me you know how it feels, that you know it's awful. Would you like to live a day in my position? That would only be a fraction of what I've been going through for goodness knows how long.
Never mind. I'll just stop crapping right now before it gets out of hand huh.
/ ►Saturday, July 10, 2010 @ 4:34 PM
Hmm. I feel a little better todayyy :D Although I'm still tired haha. Had E Math from 10 to 12 today.. I felt unproductive again, as usual ): Sigh. Went home myself today. 1 plus point (: It's such a hot day ._.Anyway. It's been a strange week for me.. Sigh. Lots and lots and lots of ups and downs, you could say. I don't want to elaborate for fear that I'll start to type nonsense. Plus my studies are practically going down the drain. Oh, what the heck.
Off to a relative's wedding dinner now. Gonna change, at least I get to dress up (: Another plus point. Ah well (: I'm kinda hovering between up and down now. I guess that's better than being nearer to the downside. Bye (:
/ ►Friday, July 9, 2010 @ 11:01 PM
I'm confused.. Troubled.I guess a large contributing factor is that I'm so tired everyday that I can't even get in the time to study anything substantial. That's affecting me like, a lot. Stupid Os are like 3 freakin' months away and Prelims are even nearer goodness. Screwed up much.. I've been sleeping at like, 1 every night. How annoying. And it makes me fall asleep in school. When I come back, it gets worse. Plus, I don't have the time to nap anymore, so I just have to get through the day by sheer will.
Sigh. Today's tuition was kinda unproductive.. ): I was only awake for the first half of it? Subsequently, I was falling asleep like no one's business and no, it isn't funny. I couldn't even understand what my tutor was saying and OMG it's organic freakin' chemistry!! Oh well. What can I do.
I give up.
/ ►Thursday, July 8, 2010 @ 11:04 PM
GERMANY LOST!!! ): ): ): ): STUPID SPAIN. They freakin' scored in the last 20 minutes of the game!!! ARGH. Never mind. Why cry over spilt milk right? :] Let's blog about nicer things :D ORAL WAS GOOD TODAY YAY! :D :D :D :D :D I mean like. At least the teacher(s) didn't have to ask me if I had anything else to add 'cuz that would mean that I hadn't said enough :] And I managed to make them laugh at the end of my exam, PRO OR NOT :D I seriously need to um, sleep earlier.. But that's virtually impossible uh, unfortunately. Every night I fall asleep after dinner which is the time where I'm supposed to be able to accomplish the most stuff, and by the time I 'wake up' it's too late, like 11 plus ._. Ah well. Tristan says I'm a machine ): I guess I'm forced to be one!
YAY I can sing for Speech Day YAY :D 2 awesome songs yo! :D Hahaha. My last performance with TK choir.. Oh wait! If there's a concert I'm so gonna participate mansxzx :D Sumpa! :D
I think someone's tampering with my FB ._. It keeps logging out for no reason UGH. Annoying much.
Alright. I'm done blabbering :D More work for me sigh ): Bye!
/ ►Wednesday, July 7, 2010 @ 10:23 PM
I wanted to watch the Germany vs Spain match but my mum doesn't allow!!!! ): ): ): ARGH DAMMIT! ): I HOPE GERMANY WINS!!! :D Today was the sian-est MEP session ever ): Sigh.. I don't know.
Hahaha I don't feel like blogging anymore :D I'm happy :D
I'm damn scared for oral tomorrow ): Oh well. Hope I don't screw up hehe :]
Bye! :D
/ ►Tuesday, July 6, 2010 @ 11:10 PM
Hello peoplezz :DToday was a horrible day ): I felt so horribly, awfully tired ugh ): And my left eye has an awesome triple eyelid yo! LOL. Alright I'm not making sense..
Argh. I'm so annoyed. My parents won't stop nagging at me -.- Whatever.
Bye. Probably gonna sleep relatively late tonight, who cares. MEP tomorrow ah screw it ): I'm in a bad mood now -.- Bye.
/ ►Monday, July 5, 2010 @ 10:10 PM
Today was my last outing with Mel ): She's going to Perth to study oh man ): I can't send her off on Wednesday ): Anyway I wanna say something. I don't quite appreciate Billy Bombers' service ._. They're so not efficient.. Know why? We had to ask for ice water 3 times before they actually brought it to us, lame or lame?? And my grilled chicken wasn't all that great; it was so hard. Argh. I kinda regret going there.. ): And they made me broke! ):
Knight and Day is an awesome movieee :D I strongly encourage you guys to go catch it hehe :] I don't know what people have against the movie and against Cameron Diaz ): Never mind! Shan't dwell on things we can't change eh?? :D
I'm awfully tired ): Was falling asleep during tuition just now sigh.. How frustrating.
I LOVE YOU, MEL'S CELL! :D :D :D :D :D You guys are the best fun ever!!! :D
Bye (: I'm super tired.. ): I'm scared for my stupid MT Oral on Thursday darn it -.-
/ ►Sunday, July 4, 2010 @ 11:38 PM
Hi (: It's been a trying couple of days for me but I guess I got through them (:I shan't post a long one.. I'm kinda tired; it's been harrowing :] So bye, people (: Goodnight.