Ahh. Never mind there's nothing to be done about it. Everyone around me keeps telling me I'll do fine and there's nothing to worry about. I wonder what makes them so positive I'll do okay. Sometimes it irks me how 'carefree' they seem to be. But then again it's just them trying to comfort me and get rid of my stupid tension and worry.

Anyway. I've restarted piano and I'm going to do my LTCL this June, which entails a hell lot of practising for me. It's kinda hard for me to discipline myself to practise after so long. I haven't touched the piano since the end of September, although I did play a few times to ease my boredom occasionally. And I'm going to audition this October for one of the US colleges to do music.. I'll only get to do it if I pass. And even then I'll only go the following August or October so. I don't know if I can even be ready by then :/ I don't even think I'm prepared to travel anywhere by myself even if the country is an English speaking country. I'm scared; this year brings so many changes and so many new things.

K is ignoring me. K didn't seem happy to talk to me even via text and he's ignoring me today. Sigh. I don't know what happened.

Goodbye.